We all feel lost sometimes

Hi!

I mentioned in my post about my exchange year about how I never really hit the stage of feeling really lonely and homesick. Well, I don't feel really homesick since I just visited home but I've felt pretty alone lately. I usually never talk about these feelings but I thought maybe writing them down might help and this blog was made to go through the process of moving out after all.

I have never been a person who's actively going out and hanging out with friends but something changed when I moved over here. I started hanging out with friends a lot more and I feel like I had something to do almost every weekend. But it's starting to show that I don't have as many friends here as I did in Helsinki. People obviously have their own lives and as much as I enjoy spending time alone sometimes, weekends have started feeling like they last forever because I've just felt really alone.

I was watching a movie on Friday that was pretty upsetting and I ended up feeling like I would do just anything to get a hug from someone. Obviously there was no one to hug so I ended up making a caramel hot chocolate and had to convince myself that it was almost as good as a hug. I haven't really had those "I wish I hadn't moved over here" moments a lot but that was a huge one.

The worst thing about this probably is that I've let it affect my life so much. I keep telling myself that my friends don't care about me which I know isn't true. Yet somehow I feel like I've been a bit more quiet in school and don't really talk in our friend group chats, afraid that I'll annoy my friends and push them away from my life which I don't want to do. Sometimes it feels like absolutely no one cares and I know that isn't true either. Writing this blog post made me realize how ridiculous this sounds and that I really need to work on this because I'm not alone and I know it.

I'm so happy I have people and things in life that make me really happy and feel less alone in these situations. I started writing this blog post last night but somehow I started talking with a friend that is always there for me to lift me up when I'm feeling down and I got so happy I didn't feel like writing this anymore. I decided to continue this today anyway as I felt like it might be the best to go through these feelings by writing them down. There are so many more things that keep me going than what make me feel alone so I should focus on those instead and realize it's okay to feel completely lost sometimes.

See you soon!
~Susanna

January 2015 Livbox

Hi!

This year's first Livbox came in the mail couple days ago. It wasn't one of my favorite ones but I'm pretty excited to try everything. Here's what was inside:

Philosophy - The Microdelivery Peel Kit If you only knew how excited I got when I heard Livbox were working with Philosophy and we would get their products in the boxes. This one is a two-step in-home peel and the results are supposed to be immediate and remarkable. In the box we had foil packets of what is included in this peel and it will probably last for one use so I'm interested to see how immediate the results are. (76€ / 60 + 60 ml)
Rimmel - BB Cream 9 in 1 I'm kind of not a fan of getting bb creams in Livbox. I mean I would love it if I wasn't as pale as Voldemort. Even though this bb cream is in shade light, it will probably be a bit too dark for me and I will definitely still try it because it sounds pretty interesting. This 9 in 1 bb cream promises to prime, moisturize, minimize pores, conceal, cover, smooth, mattify, brighten and help protect. It also has spf 25. (11,90€ / 30 ml)
La Roche-Posay - Lipikar Baume AP+ balm A balm you use daily. Mostly suitable for very dry or sensitive skin. My face does get really dry especially during winter (it's been even worse in Lapland) and not a lot of things have worked so I'm excited to see how this one works for me. (9€ / 200 ml)
Lumene - Ultra sensitive moisturizing and calming mask I'm always up for trying new face masks so this was nice to get. It's supposed to help to minimize skin irritation, redness and tightness and provide optimal moisture. (17,90€ / 75ml)
Cutrin - Chooz Multivolumizer This product promises volume, body and texture for all hair lengths. It contains UV-, anti-humidity and heat protection. It's also apparently developed especially for Nordic hair and for Nordic conditions. My only problem with this is that you're supposed to blow dry your hair after using this but I let my hair air dry. I might still try out how it works without blow drying. (15,90 / 150ml)

See you soon!
~Susanna